how long does it take for someone to be freed from grief?

has there been a research,

on the average time grieving takes?

because it's been a year,

and I still find my breath

hitched whenever I pass

someone who smells just like you

because it's been a year,

and I still find myself

frozen whenever our songs

accidentally play on shuffle

because it's been a year,

and I still find my fingers

trailing the stuff you left

behind in our apartment

because it's been a year,

and I still find myself

feeling elated visiting

the tiny lake where

we had our first date

because it's been a year,

and I still find my chest

hurts whenever I see

your name pop up on my screen

because it's been a year,

and I still find myself

jolted from a nightmare

about you leaving for good

because it's been a year,

and I still find myself

sobbing on the bathroom floor

realizing it's been a year

and I'm still hung up on you

and you aren't coming back

so tell me again,

has there been a research,

on the average time grieving takes?